When the wheels fall off of life
- Risty
- Sep 8, 2017
- 3 min read
Tonight I’m taking a break from boxing up our house to revisit this book because I desperately need some answers. I need to know God has the outcome of our lives. I need a reminder. I need to remember to quiet my mind to hear from God.
Why am I boxing up our house? Why do I need to hear from God? Well, because….
My husband and I found mold in our house. Again.
We had some suspicions, so we tore the laundry room to the studs six months ago. Nothing was found and we were taking our time putting it back…apparently you need money to finish renovations!
We wanted to see what an odd shelf in the other room contained and decided to cut a hole in this wall and look in with a flashlight. I pulled back the insulation for my husband to see…and… we found this.
My nightmare. My kryptonite. Mold.
I started this weekend feeling so discouraged and asking God, why? Why must we do this again? I felt scared, we don’t have the money to relocate a second time. Didn’t we learn our lessons the first time?
Did I let idols come between God and I?
My mind swirled today, mixed with bouts of emotional break-downs as I packed up our house and prepare to move back in with my in-laws. For the second time in our five years of marriage.
My pastor has a saying to describe when things don’t go the way you expect them to. He says it’s when the wheels fall off of your life. It’s when your world gets shattered and crumbles around you.
Sometimes it seems like there is one thing after another. Sometimes you feel like your life is out of control.
A year and a half ago, we found mold in our house, we tried unsuccessfully to clean it and we lost every single thing we owned. Clothes, furniture, our wedding photos. Everything.
You can read about my story on the post Risty's Testimony, and you can read my husband’s story on Fuzzy's Testimony.
We moved to a new house, taking care to take air samples to see if there were high counts of mold.
We purchased a house we thought was safe and began treatments to flush the mold out of our bodies.
My husband is completely healed. Praise God! I am much better, most of my symptoms are gone, you can read about them here. But I’m not completely over it. Now, I know why.
I don’t know the answers, I don’t know why we are facing the same challenge again. I do know that God will provide, he always does. Somehow it will work out, maybe not the way I want it to, but it will work out.
I am hopeful, that after we clean this spot, I will get well. After all, I have been getting better in this house. I am much healthier now than I was last time. The mold is on a wood substance that can be removed unlike our farm house, where the mold was growing on the cement blocks that made up our basement foundation.
My husband and I try to learn from our mistakes. This time we will be following the protocol for eradicating mold found in the bible in Leviticus 14:33-45, starting with moving all of our things out of the house before trying to remove the mold.
Sometimes, life seems overwhelming and daunting. It reminds me that I can not do this alone. I can not control situations that are out of my scope of reach.
I can not force things to get better but I can pray and ask God for direction. I can ask for discernment and wisdom. I can listen for his voice.
I don’t have all the answers and I miss understand or plain don’t hear what God is telling me more than I’d like to admit. So tonight, I’m going to curl up amidst the cardboard boxes and spend some time with Jesus.
When the journey is hard, you need to seek Jesus, lay your burdens at his feet, at the feet of the cross and have faith that he is with you in this place.
Jesus does not promise that his followers will have an easy life, in fact he says we will face many trials, but he does promise to be by our side the whole way. God will not leave you or forsake you. God loves you. Will you turn to God today? Will you put your faith in him?
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